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stepping out

have you ever stepped out of your comfort zone?

have been feeling under the weather recently… this is my 2nd day off from work, have accomplished nothing except moving in slow motion and doing mundane tasks with increasingly great effort.

In lieu of being crabby or feeling down, I thought “I know!  I’ll make a happy list!  Perhaps this will be the beginning of a new blog entry…”

  1. good friends
  2. robutussin
  3. cellular phone service
  4. a working car
  5. tissues
  6. lotion
  7. soap
  8. fresh water
  9. hepa vacuum
  10. electricity, for that matter
  11. comphy bed upon which to lay my head
  12. poetry, spontaneous and otherwise
  13. Home Goods store  (as i have decided to buy 1 or 2 plates of patterns i like…and fill my kitchen with an eclectic beautiful set of dishes when the ******* kitchen is complete)
  14. cranberry juice: while flavorful, it is not citrus based, therefore does not interfere with medications, while being highly hydrating.
  15. the public library
  16. lists

The kitchen project is still underway.  It has take sooooooooo much longer than originally planned.  I thought in this economy, it would be fairly easy to get the work done well in a timely manner.  Unfortunately, most of the men who have played a hand in the rehab project have proved themselves incompetent.  They need a keeper.  Instead of being homeowner/customer, I’m also the general contractor, mother/supplier-of-things, and check-er-up-er-on-things-that-were-supposed-to-be-accomplished-in-an-efficient-and-quality-manner.

it’s exhausting.

Work is intense.  I need to hold on tight to my Half-Full attitude…as it’s such a negative environment it’s difficult to fight sometimes.  I dont’ want to be 32 and bitter and angry and irritated in my job and the work environment… I want to be 32 and happy and outgoing and thrilled at the opportunities my job sets at my feet.

I stepped out of my comfort zone, and was encouaged this week: went to a group for single women at the church… its focus is ‘intimacy’ which includes intimacy with G-D, intimacy with friends/familiy, and intimacy with the opposite sex.  So far, it was validating, in a way, to hear about other women’s struggles with similar issues… the first meeting was all about introductions and making short & long-term plans/goals.  Hopefully there will be some fruit evident in my life as this little excurion continues… whether it’s tilling the cold hard soil, planting seeds, watering a little plant,  pruning, or even celebrating with a fresh piece of fruit on a hot summer’s day.  Who knows?  it’s a journey.

mental health day

i’ve decided that i will be sick tomorrow. i’m a bit stressed and/or overwhelmed … need to take some time for me. need to figure a few things out… and work on some stuff… and not explode (that can get messy). i give 110% in my job, and at the moment i’m operating on approx 23%… you do the math. tomorrow is about refueling. i’m deplete.

HEY MEN – is it a good sign if… i lent a book to a guy, needed it back (fyi: we decided to take dating off the table before meeting for the first time …a few weeks ago) …anyway, is it a good sign if we met in a parking lot to exchange the book, and it’s apparent he changed his shirt and put on cologne or aftershave lotion? or am i just being a girl and reading too much into it? i wonder if he’s trying to impress me? or perhaps he was just trying to cover the ode-de-bachelorhood… (this happened about 11pm my time). he was cuter this time around…(2nd in-person experience) and it wasn’t’ the shirt/scent combo. perhaps the situation was more real…less choreographed. who knows.

hope you’re all doing well. thanks for reading, and for your comments. they truly brighten my day… or make me think. sometimes both. thanks for making me feel so welcome.